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Thursday, May 02, 2013
To Show You My Love by Mike Schmid

Came across this song on youtube, now addicted... :P

To Show You My Love by Mike Schmid

I wanted to write you a song
A song you could sing forever
And I wanted to rhyme
And to bend phrase and time
Into something clever
But you deserve something better

If I could make all the mountains spell your name
And all the old streetcars dance in the rain
And promise to hold you for all my days
It wouldn't be enough
To show you my love

I wanted to write you a verse
Of all of the things that I love in you
Of your beautiful smile
And the truth in your eyes
And the way you always knew
That you deserved someone better

If I could make all the mountains spell your name
And all the old streetcars dance in the rain
And promise to hold you for all my days
It wouldn't be enough
To show you my love

And when I'm ugly
I know you love me
And you know all of me
And I wouldn't wish that on anyone

If I could make all the mountains spell your name
And all the old streetcars dance in the rain
And promise to hold you for all my days
It wouldn't be enough
To show you my love

Back To YouNow I'm stuck inside my head
You should leave me here for dead
But instead of sitting this one out
You come right in

When I feel like giving up
You give me grace, you give me love
And it's all, all I can do
To give it back to you

I've tried to turn my life around
And when I've run it in the ground
You never let it hold me down
I'm lost and found

When I feel like giving up
You give me grace, you give me love
And it's all, all I can do
To give it back to you

I know life is quite a ride
But there's someone at my side
For all the times
I can't drive

When I feel like giving up
You give me grace, you give me love
And it's all, all I can do
To give it back to you

Dear MeDear me, don't rely on what you see
All the blacks and whites dissolve into the gray
Dear me, there are monsters in the trees
And you won't notice them until they're in the way
And you should be ready
To fight them down
Cause no one will be there
To help you out
And no one will see
When you begin to doubt
And you hide
Hide
Hide away

Dear me, seems you'll lose along the way
Simple truths you found so comforting before
Dear me, all the love you thought was free
It will cost much more than what you can afford
And you won't be ready
You'll fight them down
And no one will be there
To pull you out
And when nothing is left
You forget what it's about
And you hide
Hide
Hide away

So I'm writing you this letter
To warn you now
Before you get your hopes up
Before they fall back down
You don't have to worry
And you don't need to...

Hide
Hide
Hide away

Dear me, you should know that you can't see
Just how good that it will be, in the end

CrazyA lot of crazy thoughts run through my brain
Every single day like a freight train
And they weigh me down
Saying I'm too much, too out of touch
And I use my brokenness as a crutch
And soon you won't be around

Hey, it's okay
I'm not afraid
Hey, it's okay
I'm not afraid
That you'll run away
Cause I believe what you say
And maybe that makes me
Crazy
Crazy

I think of all the blame and the reasons you should hate me
And all the of the ways that the fates berate me
And it gets me down
You can be a good friend and you can be a good lover,
But when it's one thing after another
After another, after another
It must be hard to stay around

Hey, it's okay
I'm not afraid
Hey, it's okay
I'm not afraid
That you'll run away
Cause I believe what you say
And maybe that makes me
Crazy
Crazy

Even though I know I must disgust you
Something in me makes me trust you
And I do I do

I Won't Sleep TonightI get your songs stuck in my head
All of your words tucked in my bed
And I won't sleep tonight
No, I won't sleep tonight

All of those things that once you said
All of those things I thought you meant
I won't sleep tonight
No, I won't sleep tonight

Your breath in and out
Steady and far too deep
Knowing you would wake to watch me sleep
And we were so cold
Under a blanket made for one
But so warm once the night is done
And I'm warm now
I'm warm now, it's true
But I won't sleep tonight
No, I won't sleep tonight without you

Now I can't even see your face
A piece of the puzzle I can't place
And I won't sleep tonight
No, I won't sleep tonight

If you're erased by passing years
I can still feel that you're not here
And even though there's nothing I can do
I won't sleep tonight
No, I won't sleep tonight without you

Is This It?Is this love?
I've been hurt before
And I don't know anymore

You're so kind
But I shouldn't get too comfortable
But you're so kind

Is this real?
I was dead before
And I don't know anymore
Is this real?

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Saturday, April 20, 2013
Updates 2013-04-12

So... I decided to back date and post several longer posts that were on FB to consolidate things on here instead.  So you can read the posts below, or not.

So I finished Kingdom Hearts: 358/2 Days, Birth By Sleep, and Dream Drop Distance.  Only missing Re:Coded.  Now that the missing parts of the story are being filled out, things look much more interesting.  My friends are my power!



Though I think that they are missing Namine.  Even though she's not a weapon wielding character, I think that she should get ah honorary mention.  Considering Kairi is there (spoilers!) and Xion is also in the background even though she's supposed to be forgotten by everyone.

I miss Amy and Rory on Dr. Who.  The way they left the show was pretty epic.  Though the new companion does look promising.

This lack of a job and expendable incoming is starting to drive me up the wall... When am I going to actually get a semblance of a career going?  Time to go back to school?

Got addicted to a YouTube channel, and came across several goods songs as a result.  I'll post them as they come.  Here's one:


Lifehouse - You and Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything she does is beautiful
Everything she does is right

'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all other people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive


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Monday, April 01, 2013
Nathan Wong - Love Is Heavy

Came across the following lyrics on a friend's page.  Apparently, he doesn't read or understand Chinese.  So...


Nathan Wong - Love Is Heavy

http://youtu.be/CXOmXAN3C1Q

(lyrics are not official, based off of a youtube post and http://sleepingdogs.wikia.com/wiki/Love_Is_Heavy_by_Nathan_Wang)

 

看�'�你 遠離的背影�'不夠勇氣

想�'�你 過去的回憶還是很清晰

不想面對 你的�'為了他

不願回想 你給�'的回�"

 

Looking at your, faraway silhouette I don't have the courage

Thinking of your, past memories are still very vivid

Don't want to face, the smile that you gave for him

Don't want to remember, the answer that you gave me

 

等�'�你 午夜的電話再也不響起

聽�'�你 反覆的留言感覺很靠�'

不敢奢求 你�'說你愛�'

不肯�"�手 �'�'已到最後

 

Looking at you, the phone no longer rings at midnight

Listening to your, the repeated messages and feel very close (to you)

Don't dare to ask, for you to smile and say you love me

Can't let go, we're at the end

 

愛恨晚 已�""延

想轉身 欲忍不住看一眼

渴望你回頭留戀

愛很重 �"�不下

�"�一你還是�"�'期待

可是你不再以�'為中心

為�'轉

 

Love hates to be late, has already spread

Want to turn around, but can't help from taking another look

Eager for you to look back and stay

Love is heavy, can't put it down

You are the only one that I long for

But you no longer use me as the center

and revolve for me*

 

*line reads better as "But you no longer revolve around me as the center"

 

看�'�你 照片裡�'�'�'得多�"�蜜

想�'�你 熟悉的街景陌�"�的身影

不願相信 是�'�"你�"�了

不想去聽 �'�'是怎麼了

 

Looking at you, and we're smiling so sweetly in the photo(s)

Thinking about you, the familiar streets, the strange shadows

Can't believe, I allowed you to cry

Can't (bare) to hear, what we have became

 

愛很悶 快�'息

�'�訴�'怎樣才能逃避

�'�圍空氣充滿你

愛很重 喘不過氣

不懂你怎能�"�手徹底

難�"你不見�'為你狼狽

掉眼淚

 

Love is bored, quickly sufficating

Tell me how I can escape

Everywhere and the air is filled with you

Love is heavy, can't breathe

Don't understand how you can let go so thoroughly

Can't you see me embarassed and awkward because of you

shedding tears

 

愛恨晚 往不回頭

從來未那麼認真愛過

你卻輕�"�"�開�'

愛很重 �'不後�"

坦白的 你�"�'徹底了解

你坦誠�"�" 你不在乎�'

 

Love hates to be late, won't turn back

(I) Have never loved so seriously

Yet you let me go so easily

Love is heavy, but I don't regret

Frankly, you let me to completely understand

You were honest, you don't care about me


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Friday, February 08, 2013
Taught Me Forgiveness

Friend didn't understand the article, so I speed translated it within 2 hours.

<Les Miserables> Taught Me Forgiveness

Author: - Zhī wēi
Source: http://bit.ly/VJaP59

Translation: Kenneth Ng

In this world, what is the most powerful? After watching Les Miserables twice, my answer is forgiveness.

While watching <LesMis>, most people will cry. But since I was easily susceptible to crying, I cried from the beginning of the film to <Do you hear the people sing> in the ending. I was least resistant when I witnessed, time after time, the awakening of lost hearts, soul redeeming forgiveness.

Because of a bite of bread, Jean Valjean was jailed for 19 years. He was finally released after fulfilling his sentence, but found that he was to carry an identity that labeled him as a criminal. Bearing his criminal record, he was begging for life, with hatred and injustice in his heart. On a cold winter night, he was taken in by a Bishop, but his greed rose again, and he stole the silverware. The fearful Jean Valjean was ultimately caught again, but was forgiven by the king Bishop, and released to freedom. With a stomach full of hatred, he was stunned like never before, his inherent believes were completely overturned. After suspicions and struggles, the power of forgiveness finally overpowered everything. His tears washed away the anger caused redness in his eyes, and hope lit up his resolution to become a new man.

But this was only the beginning of the story. The Bishop taught Jean Valjean how to forgive, and Jean Valjean used forgiveness and saved the lost souls in a tragic world.

Inspector Javert is a defender of the law, and stubborn in his justice [and righteousness]. He spent his life, blindly punishing the bad and protecting the good, chasing after the escapee Jean Valjean. When they finally meet again, Jean Valjean is already a mayor, and only after seeing how he saved a man with his brute strength lifting up cart, Javert became suspicious that the man in front of him is the prisoner 24601, but he couldn't be sure.

While he was indecisive on the matter, he received a letter, saying that someone was caught and convicted as Jean Valjean. Yielding to his shame, Inspector Javert admitted his guilt. Jean Valjean didn't use his power [within his right as the Mayor] to punish this ticking time bomb, and instead, generously praise him for fulfilling his duty. Javert was surprised and moved - when one has wronged, besides punishing, one can also choose to forgive.

The unfortunate single mother Fantine was ejected from the factory, and in order to support her young daughter, sold her hair, teeth, and even her body. [Covered with injuries from head to toe]*, without all her dignity, she was finally reunited with the Mayor Jean Valjean that didn't help her. Filled with heartfelt anger, she insulted [or dishonoured] him. Not only was Jean Valjean not angry, he also saved her with his own hands, and promised to take care of her daughter. The abused Fantine was so moved she was shaken to the core. Her innocent errors, anxiety, and sins were scattered with the wind in Jean Valjean's complete and utter forgiveness. Her soul was forgiven and saved, and she held a pleased smile in the corner of her lips in the final moments of her life.

The most profound forgiveness of the whole story happened after Jean Valjean released Javert, and they met again the morning after the students' revolution. With his eyes wide open, watching Jean Valjean leaving with the injured student on his shoulders, Javert completely fell apart. The so-called law, system [or institution], and righteousness, that he spent his life protecting and upholding, was overturned in a moment. In that time of complete darkness, of "inverted black and white"**, how can you discern [the truth]? "Point to a deer and call it a horse"***, and who knows the better? In the end, Javert's system of belief fell apart, and jumped into the rapids. This jump, didn't just signify the ending of his life, but also symbolized the chaotic timeframe and the ruler's system of belief. The system was completely vulnerable when faced with the great compassion shown in forgiveness.

For those of us that are facing an ever explosively stressful, intensely competitive society, why isn't forgiveness a required course? The first step is to start from forgiving oneself and loving oneself.

Translator's notes:
* Original Chinese idiom: "Without an uninjured spot on her body", originally structured to symbolically mirror "without all her dignity"
** Original Chinese idiom: "to invert the black and the white", meaning twisting or distorting the truth
*** Original Chinese idiom: "point to a deer and call it a horse", meaning again to confound the truth

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Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Counting Down to 2013

The party is over, alcohol has left me alone, sleep has been slept, and sobriety has returned, so let's get down to something more serious.

 

2012 has been an awesome year for me, full of ups and downs.  From counting down at LKF, spending Feb in HK with Chrissy, my return to Vancouver, ACM 2012 @ Vancouver, my spiritual struggles, the multiple jobs, Maui, but I finally got to spend this Christmas with my family and friends.

 

The experience in HK turned out to be unexpected, but the end result was the same.  I may not have enjoyed working in HK, but I greatly improved my employability.  I also finally got to do some coding, and boy do I miss software projects!

 

Meeting up with Chrissy and Aiwa in HK turned out to be another blessing - I gained another crazy friend, and probably lost more IQ points in the process.

 

Returning to Vancouver was awesome.  I cannot express how much love and support I got from my friends and brothers and sisters.  Mom has been negotiable.  Driving was something I sorely missed.  The Lord has been very graceful of this move.  I will miss the conveniences of walking downstairs and grabbing food around the corner, but I guess I will survive by cooking more.

 

ACM reminded me what I had promised Him.  When will be the right time and circumstances for me to start another journey?  Or have I already started down this new path?  Only time will tell.

 

Well, apparently, 2012 is a year of many jobs for me.  TimeLink, Compugen, Pacifica x 2, CompuCom/Robert Half.  I don't think I have ever had that may jobs and projects in one year!  Definitely a year of changes!

Maui was awesome.  I cannot express the mixed bag of feelings from the trip, but the best parts were the phone interview while sitting in a room in a resort looking out at the beach and the ocean, and star gazing at night.  Snorkelling was another adventure.  I think I'm now officially addicted to lilikoi (aka passion fruit).  The facial was good, but the massage was awesome.

The best part is the last - spending time with my friends and family over Christmas.  It sounds so silly, and even corny, but distance definitely makes the heart grow fonder.  I guess that's what I missed the most while in HK - my friends that I had grown up with, laughed with, and cried with.

PS.  My back thanks GOD for my firm bed.


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Wednesday, September 26, 2012
Home is where the heart is (2)

Looking back, I’ve been with VCLC for over 8 years now. I still remember the first day I walked into the church, nervous but excited – excite for the new life that the Lord has given me, nervous for I have no clue what to expect. Initially, I wanted to attend a church that was closer, perhaps one in Richmond. But the brothers and sisters, and their love for the Lord convinced me to stay.

Looking down from the stage (a place that I’m usually comfortable on) leading praise and worship for the first time brought back emotions of fear. I have been on stage many times, but that was the first time I was to praise Him and bring glory to God on stage. On this same stage, I saw the church flourish; I also saw the church dwindle. I have been discouraged many times, but seeing the encouraged faces in the crowd encourages me to continue to stand, giving my best to the Lord regardless of what context. I thank God for His grace to allow me to continue to use music to encourage my brothers and sisters.

Looking up from the baptism pool, reading out my relatively peaceful testimony, remembering the realization that God has prepared the best for me, and all I had to do was to confirm, reach out and commit myself to Him. Since then, it has been a rollercoaster ride full of ups and downs. I graduated and job hunted in a poor economy, had to continuously lower my expectations, and being constantly disappointed; yet I’ve learned to praise God through all that. I thank God for giving me brothers and sisters to support me.

Looking out from a tour bus, even though there was much to see in Beijing, all I saw were the faces of my brothers and sisters. Though I was looking forward to my internship in Hong Kong, I missed my friends even more. While in Hong Kong, I had the chance to worship God in a very charismatic church, which opened my eyes to different types of worship. They became my home away from home, and will hold a special place in my heart always. This internship was a gift from God, one that I will forever cherish. I regret having to leave my friends, my brothers, and sisters for it, but knowing that I will see them again gave me strength to continue.

Looking at the past 8 years with VCLC, I see how much it has matured, and how much I have grown with it spiritually. I thank God for letting me return to this home, so that I can witness its next incarnation, so that I can continue to walk in Christ, with my brothers and sisters in VCLC.

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Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Creative "Referencing" 2012-04-25

來來回回我只站在門外

沉默的守護著你 沉默的等奇蹟

沉默的讓自己 像是空氣

大家都吃著聊著笑著 今晚多開心

最角落裡的我 笑得多合群

偷偷的看著你 偷偷的隱藏著自己

但我不想一個快樂 是我過去不自覺

盼望能伴著妳 還分享我感覺

 

如果 全世界我也可以放棄

至少還有你 值得我去珍惜

扮靚的皆因你 癲癲也地皆因你 為你甘心作傻事

其實有否一點喜歡我?其實心裡有沒有我

其實我知道是可一不可再

下半生准我留住妳一直相愛

 

我,可以沉默多久?

你,何時才會發現?

 

有 人孤單無二,無子無兄,竟勞碌不息,眼目也不以錢財為足。他說:我勞勞碌碌,刻苦自己,不享福樂,到底是為誰呢? 這也是虛空,是極重的勞苦。 兩個人總比一個人好,因為二人勞碌同得美好的果效。 若是跌倒,這人可以扶起他的同伴;若是孤身跌倒,沒有別人扶起他來,這人就有禍了。 再者,二人同睡就都暖和,一人獨睡怎能暖和呢? 有人攻勝孤身一人,若有二人便能敵擋他...  傳道書4:8-12上


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Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Creative Writing 2012-04-18

How far would you go for love?

〈你會為愛情�'多遠?〉

 

�'「�"�不低」,因為�'「捨不得你」。

見到你就好「曖昧」,�'的心像在玩「纏綿遊戲」一樣。

�'常常活在「愛與痛的邊緣」,但「其實你心裡有�'有�'」?

�'再「不想獨自快樂」,因為「你快樂(所以�'快樂)」。

一�"�之中「�"�獨你是不可取替」,�'的心像「洋�"�」般一層一層的為你剝開。

�'「分分鐘需要你」,直到最後一刻,「至�'還有你」。

從此與你「一直相愛」,「�'愿意」。


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Tuesday, December 27, 2011
周杰倫 世界未末日 Not the End of the World

 世界未末日

主�"�:�'�杰倫
作曲:�'�杰倫
填詞:方文山
編曲:
監製:
Not the End of the World

Vocals: Jay Chou
Composer: Jay Chou
Lyrics: Fang Wen Shan
Arrangement:
Producer:
這街�"在下陷
�'�'就快失去了家�'
你�'卻都�'有埋怨
將眼淚停格瞬�"
街景�'�毀
�'內心卻不輕�"�'�退
滿天風雪
�'�'會微�'去面對
This street is crumbling,
we will loose our dear home soon.
You and I are not complaining,
freeze the tears in an instant.
Streets are destroyed,
my heart won't give up so easily.
Skys full of snow,
we will face it with a smile

�'牽�'�你的手
一路穿梭在城市路口
就算故事到了盡頭
�'�'也絕不退縮
快轉風景
被一再提�'失去森林
落�'�聲音
停不住�'�'的關心
I'm holding your hands,
crossing the city street corners.
Even at the end of the story,
we will, never cower.
The scenery changes,
reminds us again of the lost forests.
Sound of leaves falling,
can't stop us, from caring.
就算是世界要崩潰
親愛的�'也絕不會落淚
不�"�棄愛過的那種感覺
珍惜�'�有你記憶的一切
Even if the world collapses
My dear, I will never shed my tears
Won't give up those feelings that I love
Treasure all my memories of you
就算是世界要傾斜
親愛的�'也絕不說離別
儘管末日威脅再強烈
有愛就不累
Even if the world becomes slanted
My dear, I will never say good bye
[Even if] the threat of the end gets stronger
with love, [I'm] not tired
�'牽�'�你的手
一路穿梭在城市路口
就算故事到了盡頭
�'�'也絕不退縮
快轉風景
被一再提�'失去森林
落�'�聲音
停不住�'�'的關心
I'm holding your hands,
crossing the city street corners.
Even at the end of the story,
we will, never cower.
The scenery changes,
reminds us again of the lost forests.
Sound of leaves falling,
can't stop us, from caring.
就算是世界要崩潰
親愛的�'也絕不會落淚
不�"�棄愛過的那種感覺
珍惜�'�有你記憶的一切
Even if the world collapses
My dear, I will never shed my tears
Won't give up those feelings that I love
Treasure all my memories of you
就算是世界要傾斜
親愛的�'也絕不說離別
儘管末日威脅再強烈
有愛就不累
Even if the world becomes slanted
My dear, I will never say good bye
[Even if] the threat of the end gets stronger
with love, [I'm] not tired

New-ish song from Jay.  Love the message brought out through the MV.  Reminds us that no matter what we're doing, that our time here on this earth is short, that we should treasure the time we have with each other.  Hope you love the translation on there.

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Sunday, December 04, 2011
唯獨你是不可取替 Only You are Irreplaceable

Its been awhile since I've posted.  A couple of things.  One being that I had moved back to Hong Kong for a job.  Second possibly is that I haven't found a song that affected me in many ways.  There have been some good new Jay Chou ones, but I wanted to share this oldie instead.

鄭秀文 唯獨你是不可取替

作詞:梁芷珊
作曲:Nakayama Miho/Useugi Shou/Oda Tetsuro
編曲:Edward Chan/King Kong

Sammi Cheung - Only You are Irreplaceable

Lyrics:
Composer:
Arrangement:

如果今天將失去眼前的一切
剩低清風兩袖也不計
唯獨妳一個是不可給取替
是我生命裡的一切
如早知今生跟妳有幸可相愛
在當初應更努力為未來
其實我知道是可一不可再
下半生准我留住妳一直相愛
If I will loose everything in front of me today,
including all that I may earn
Only you are irreplaceable,
you are everything in my life
Had I knew that I was lucky enough to be in love with you,
then I should have tired harder for the future from the beginning
I actually know that this is once in a lifetime,
for the rest of my life, let me keep you, in love forever
曾聽說有許多戀愛
沒有結果卻剩傷心者感慨
令我都刻意避開
是我不敢相信真愛
但你不惜真心真意對待
竟令我再感到意外
讓我獻出同樣被愛
全面喝采

I've heard that there are many loves,
that have no results and leave the hurt lamenting
Made me avoid them intentionally,
is that I'm not brave enough to believe in real love.
But you spared nothing and treated me truly,
and made me feel surprised.
Let me sacrifice to be loved in the same way
Cheer from all around
其實我知道是可一不可再
下半生准我留住你一直相愛
I actually know that this is once in a lifetime,
for the rest of my life, let me keep you, in love forever


PS.  I wasn't as Sammi's concert, maybe I should have.  This is because I've been listening to Sammi's songs for the past few weeks, and I miss a particular someone.

Posted at 07:51 am by fatangel
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